My life without Laurie

It's 2025 and to this moment I still can't believe I'm living without Lori. I know she would be so proud of me in so many ways and yet again she would have wished that I was further down the road. The people that I've had to deal with since her death has been horrendous what hypocrites and many of them were people that I have known for over 20 to 30 years so it's hard to let go with them and wonder what they're thinking all this time later down the road because I've not been part of their life for at least 13 years but I have gotten updates on their thoughts about me and I don't know I just kind of wish it was so. I wish people would just look at me and tell me you know what you're not my cup of tea I'm going to go down the road and wish they would leave me alone but no I mean they've got to be so mean to me and I've done nothing towards them other than the fact that they were how can I say it they were jealous I hate that I really hate that I've asked partners in the past and many other people why people certain people ask me the way they do and I was I would go like why why did they do it and they would tell me their Chelsea you I said jealous of me man I don't have anything I own nothing I wear like thrift store clothes anything that I eat I'm grateful for or I work for I mean I don't have anything worth even worrying about being jealous about it yet these are the things I'm told it just blows my mind why I'm nobody in this world I've nobody so when I hear these things I'm going like what are you talking about I'm almost 70 years old and you can tell me these people are jealous of me well I kind of get it though because man I have had the best life ever the things other people like strive for I don't and everything that I need I have so I don't understand but I hope for the younger people in my life to follow me to snowman live your life who gives a damn what anyone thinks man you may not see them in 30 years who cares what they think you live your life as best you can if it makes you happy and it doesn't harm others that's the main thing make sure that your life does not harm others I mean I'm 69 going to be 70 I've been a traveler all my life and I want to give you this little little piece of advice karma does come to you so you know be cool because people talk so if you treat people